Here is a ramble of words that can be ignored, just trying to finish up the day and update the blog in one swift sweep. Tonight I’m going to actually associate with some other humans and if you know me, you know that it is an alien thing that I do. Really, I’ve been on the clock for the last three years so talking to someone just on a “hi how are ya” basis hasn’t lost its novelty. I’m kind of like, hey, not bad, I guess this is what normal people do all the time. Steph is the same way, locked in a house for days on end with out any adult conversation can make you go batty. The world becomes about Dora the Explora and making mac and cheese. It feels that the babies are getting a little bit older so we are not on constant freak out mode anymore, and with me working less hours I am becoming reacquainted with these strange people I live with.
It’s not worth the missed time. To live so out of balance, the days pass like a blur, a fog, and you are wandering though them, just making the next punch in. I suppose that’s what life is for a lot of people. I can do it when I see where it’s going, but I have to be able to see the end point. Something had to change, and it has, and my mind is in a much better place because of it.
SD